Wednesday, April 24, 2013


[Written on Monday...]

I won't be forgetting those faces... or those little hands... and bright smiles.

And I'm reminded all over again that people are beautiful. So beautiful.

Joshua and Sandeep


Today I'm lying on my hotel room bed as we wait to depart for the airport. I wink my left eye, then cover it with my hand. Yup, I can still see... I repeat the process with my right eye. Safe.  I roll over and put another drop of milky white steroids into my right eye.

Blink, blink.

At any moment I may loose vision and my eye may enter into a medical emergency state.  I cover my left eye again... still looking good. I smile. And really I'm not afraid - just keeping tabs on it's condition...

It actually happened last Monday when I got blind-sided by a cricket ball while playing with the kids I have so grown to love. I had sat down with my buddy Sandeep on the side of the game when in the midst of my conversing with him I looked up with enough time to see the ball slam into my eye socket.

It was painful - and there were tears (from the sheer force of the impact)... but it was one of those things that I thought was going to go away. It wasn't until a little while later when I came over to show my Mom that we realized that it was much worse. And even then, we didn't know the extent until a few days later when we were able to go to a larger hospital and better facilities.

And so today I'm lying here with a pupil that is blown up to at least four times it's normal size and five clock hours of a detached retina.

Right now I can see. Tomorrow? Who knows...

And I'm so thankful and really appreciate the prayers of so many friends and family... thank you for praying for the healing of my eye. You are precious. And today I'm resting in Him and His purpose because really every event of our lives is merely another opportunity to touch the lives of others. And if for nothing else this is another reminder to sorrow for the thousands, millions, billions who are blind... and cannot see. For me, to live is Christ, to die is gain. His purpose is above all things and in Him I rest contended. And whatever the outcome - it would only be so that a thousand others might see for the first time... really.

You see, we talk about crucifixion and yet we're deathly afraid to die. And so we think all too much on this life, our mortal bodies, the things that will soon fade away anyways - while a world of beautiful people are starving for love and affection.

Better to loose an eye and to know what it means to love... than to see, and live darkness.

Lights flip on... and it's time to pack.

And in my heart is blooming a deeper love for people... and for the miracle of sight.


Carry your candle run to the darkness
Seek out the lonely the tired and worn
Hold out your candle for all to see it
Take your candle and go light your world 


Today's eye update: this morning I went into the eye center at Vanderbilt and had laser surgery on my retina to keep it from coming loose any farther. Thankfully there has been no loss of vision and we are merely continuing to wait and pray about the pupil itself returning to normal. I'm very grateful for God's loving care and healing - and for each of your prayers. Your thoughtfulness is beautiful.
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